07-13-2009, 01:38 PM
Well fellas, I sit here a shell of a man I once was. Im broken. Me and my girl are not doin well. We have grown apart in the last 6 months, and things are lookin like the end. We were together threw Jr high school, my first love, the love of my life. We went our seprete ways when we were 15. I dident see here till I was 23. I missed her that whole time. I tried to find here even. We got in contact again and got back together, we both felt the same way, we missed eachother. Its been a little over 2 years now, we have been living together just about the whole time. We have build a life together. Over the past 6 months or we have grown apart, Ive grown distant. I spent way to much time out with buddys, giving them, cigars and SC all my attention. I forgot to give the one person that means the most to me what she needs. Im crushed. Im broken. Im not a depresed type of guy, never have been, but FUCK am I depresed. I cant eat, or sleep right. I can get threw a day a work without crying. Im broken. Over the 4th, we went campin. We had an amazing time, we conected on so many levels. It sparked the flame again for me, I came back and looked at her in a different way. Like it was brand new love all over again. I got that fire back in my heart for this very special women. It just may be a little to late. She is very hurt about how we have grown apart, about how much attention I gave everything but her. I took her for granted guys. IM BROKEN! Ive been threw alot of tuff stuff in my life, alot of struggles, but this, by far, is the tuffest. One of my best friends died in 01, that took me years to get over. I dont know if Ill ever get over this. This women is my best friend, no one on this entire world know me like she does. My heart is crushed...... Ill continue this a bit later, I just cant type anymore now. Thanks for being here fellas